Today my sisters surprised me taking me out to lunch and spending the entire day together. Its been so long since we've done anything like that and I enjoyed every part of it.
I had a huge falling out with our parents and one other sibling to where I had to call the cops on them and I was left with no other choice but to leave the home. I feel a void when I'm not around my family but when I'm back in the situation it open up old deep wounds thats filled with oozing anger that no band aid can ever cover to attempt to heal it.
I'm fed up with the side of the family that has abused me over and over again but I miss my sisters and then theres my 2 month old nephew that I was to be of his life as he's growing up. How do I balance the two?
After coming home from hanging out with sisters I couldn't help it but to think about how angry I am at the family who had forced me out of the home when I have nothing and a family that would abuse me.
Sometimes I think that its just better to stay away from the whole family bc the anger is unbearable and I just have to let it all go. When I'm around the family that has taken me for granted and treated me so horrible it brings back memories that hurts me tremendously and the disappointment makes it so hard for me to grasp for air.