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Originally Posted by Suratji
why should I beat myself up that I can't forgive myself? I screwed up; I should accept that I screwed up - I don't need self-forgiveness - to me that would mean that it was o.k. that I screwed up. I don't want it to be o.k.
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I go around, and around, and around with this.
the most helpful thing I have found, by FAR, is something that our own Treehouse once said (Pardon the paraphrase, Tree)
I can't say that what I did was OK - it was not OK;
but I can say that it's over,
and that today is OK,
and that tomorrow will be more OK.
For me, the being over part is not an achievement of my own, it's purely a result of God's kindness and mercy.
And as far as today and tomorrow, if these are to be OK and more OK, I know very well that I will need help all the way, and His grace will always be there if I reach for it.
I am trying to sit with these thoughts a lot now, hoping that they will be the key I have been looking for. Perhaps helpful to you also Squiggle (and Suratji and Sunny and all of you
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