I constantly feel like I'm screaming inside and reaching out for help, Yet my lips are sealed shut and I don't move a muscle. I'm sorry if I'm not making sense.. I'm just as confused as you. The new medication I am taking to help me with my mood swings aren't helping me very much but the doctor said to give it more time and maybe up the dosage. I feel.. frustrated about that. Depressed.. I know it is stupid, right? Because I don't have a period, monthly cycle, (Haven't had one in over a year now) my hormones are all out of whack and so I need medication to keep me "In line," if you will.

I'm just so.. frustrated and depressed. The emotional pain feels like too much to handle at times. Part of my disorder is when I feel like I've eaten too much I have the habit of drugging myself up, making everything numb. It helps me to.. forget the pain awhile, you know?