((((((((Lava))))))))
Letting it out is not such a bad thing. It is part of greiving and it takes time. You have been through a lot and had to face some tuff realities.
But you are a good person in spite of it all. And, well, that sometimes makes it harder as you feel deeply.
Feel free to say it as you need to, it is a part of accepting, a very slow process for everyone. It takes time Lava, much time. But the truth is we cannot change others, we just cant, we have to accept that, and it is not easy.
Open Eyes