Ok, Ardmore,

I lived through something so very similar, older brother too and I was afraid too and I understand how you feel.

You have to outsource in a way that takes you away from him. I did it with a pony, saved my life. I got home from school, quickly changed my clothes and hopped on my pony and took off.

So, my other suggestions were to make every possible effort to not be around him. Find a barn who needs help, someplace you can go to be away. I am not saying to be a great horse rider etc. But to find ways to not let yourself be around him. Oh, I hate to think of it but that is what I did.

Try to find friends where you can go hang out after school with, join stuff, anything to stay away from him. Try to scour the net and find some kind of summer overnight camp. Do it, someplace where you can find a haven away from him.

I only mentioned a barn as they ususally need help, especially after school. Often if you are good enough a trainer may find a way for you to get a ride. Some trainers can be a haven for young girls, they all talk about it, they know. And these places always need help. Wish you lived near me, I could use a hand on my farm.

Just try to make sure you pick safe and healthy places to be around other people who are normal and are enjoying life, that is a good way to become more normal.

You have to find ways to not be in a place where you can become a victim.

Open Eyes