I've been told I'm a "gusher." By my T. Typically, I'm quite reserved and vigilant. It takes a while for me to feel comfortable in a room or individually. I feel I need to get the "flavor" of the situation. What's accepted & what's not. But once there's comfort - yeah, I "gush." I don't seem to have a "governor" to hold back what's inappropriate versus appropriate in a new relationship. I will share quite personal aspects of my life to a relative stranger once there's comfort there. (trust) Trust - safety - is so important to me that once I think I've found it, I seem to lose the ability to let the relationship build to the point where such conversations would be considered better timed.

It's caused me quite a bit of difficulty in the past. Actually, I was removed from a "Survivors of Abuse" group because it was thought I was developing too close a relationship with another of the group members. Looking back, they were correct to reach that conclusion, but back then - for me - it felt like, once again, if I DARED to show my "true self" I'd be ostracized. "Removed." Quite painful and traumatic. This was months ago & I still experience that on the nite of Group to an extent. Not as intense as at first but it's persists.

Thanks for the question. Made me think. And reflect.