Hi,
I have been trying, and failing, to figure out why I'm so unmotivated to do my homework and succeed at school. In middle school, I was an A/B student, and the thought of getting even one C scared the crap out of me for fear of what my parents would think. Then 8th grade came, my morale decreased, high school came, and I started to get Cs. 10th grade (this year) came, and I'm getting mostly Ds. I can't figure it out. My parents are disappointed, but they don't get angry about this because they figure I am upset enough for all of us. I want to be one of the kids that makes good grades, I just can't make myself do the work! I'm lazy and absentminded and unmotivated about homework...constantly getting missing assignments. I figure "I'll do it later" when faced with a tough assignment, and then I never end up doing it. It's been like this for awhile now. But...I'm applying to a high school for gifted and talented studies because I am a decent writer and artist and I tend to score well on standardized tests. Luckily, my transcript hasn't been ruined by these grades because my semester exams are configured into the overall score and it evens out my dipping marking period grades. So this is how I will get into the school, if I do. But I can't have my head up my *** at this school...they'll kick me out for repeatedly having anything below a C. I know this post sounds pathetic and a bad excuse for laziness, but isn't there some unknown reason for my motivation to be so low? There MUST be, if I do want to get good grades. If I didn't care, I'd be a "loser". But I do care, so what does that make me?

Thanks for any help or advice you guys can offer. I guess I can talk about how much I want to succeed, but the work that needs completing in order to do so is what holds me back...I just wish I knew the reason why it does.