I quit Lexapro on Friday and switched back to Celexa - cost reasons.

I felt GREAT on Lexapro, but really no different than when I'd been on Celexa. Not sure why doc switched me in the first place.

Today I just feel sorry for myself, and yesterday I felt irritable, but that was mostly because I was having work difficulties and my cat kept jumping in my lap at the worst possible times and stepping all over the keyboard. I hope that's why I was feeling testy. I can't imagine that the med change would have me feeling this way in a matter of three days, when it's basically the same drug to begin with.

I was paying the bills this morning. They're the same amounts they always are. That's the problem. They.....never.....go......down. I'm just not seeing a light at the end of the financial tunnel. I'm renting a 3 b/r house with a yard and a garage, and I love not having people above and below and on both sides of me, but I'm tired of having to jiggle the toilet handle and sidestepping the blistering hot furnace grate in the LR floor and navigating the skinny basement stairs to reset the circuit when it pops because I used the microwave while the kitchen light was turned on. At $400 a month, there's no way I want to give the space and privacy up, but I'm afraid to call my landlord about the electrical issues for fear that he'll jack up the rent after repairing things, like a previous landlord did.

I want my own place. I don't want to rent for the rest of my life, but buying a house isn't in the cards for me. I see the credit card bills continuing to come in and no break in sight. 12K on one, 5 on another, 4 on another, a $300 car payment for three more years, back taxes in the range of 30K and another 10K every year because the bills I have take nearly 100% of my income, definitely more than the 70% that I'd have left after setting aside 30% to taxes every paycheck......

I feel trapped right now.