So sorry for your loss justempty.

I think people are definitely born with the predisposition to be depressed. i know I was. Life experiences can make things better or worse. I ended up having some severe traumas that really made mine worse.

I also think there are people that are just happier. Sometimes it can be annoying, but the few people I've met like that, when I've gotten to know them, aren't really as happy as they come across at first, they just have a sunnier 'outside" persona...but are actually pretty realistic about the world or doing it to cover up some pain that they have in other places. there are people that think i'm the happiest person in the world, but i'm just a great actress.

I think for those of us who are predispositioned to be depressed, we have to work at happiness. As Venus said, it comes in short doses....but I definitely work to find happiness, because I hate the depression so much. And when life is good, I enjoy it as much as possible.

I don't have a ton of friends, and I've just happened upon mine as well so I understand your feelings on that as well - but I do my best to see them when I can, or at least talk to them or email...keep the connections alive.

i couldn't possibly tell you how to get over the loss of a love, but what you're feeling is totally valid. i hope you start to feel better soon.