Roadblock for today.... I don't want to start packing and moving things. I don't want to have to move again.

I know moving right now is necessary, but still hard, it's only moving up stairs but I"m still freaking out about just moving one stair way up.

Things keep on changing way to quickly, and I feel so out of control, and that's when things normally have gone wrong, but I guess I have to start to change sooner or later.

Roadblock to Change
Change scares me, I just want to stay the same, but I hate to have things change, but it's also the only way that I can get of the meds that are causing so much trouble. But I don't want to change because it's to painful. But Yet I"m soooo tired of all this medication, and being down, and a few other things, that help me to have some will to change. I really hate change, it's almost a phobia.