OK, you've got family issues, job & financial issues & know you are not at your best because of this. That's good--you are realistically looking at your situation and recognizing your anxiety. You are expressing yourself well. I can tell that you are intelligent and sensitive. You seem to have a lot of positive things going for you. I know you will get better once some of this settles down. I'm sure worrying about your kids is especially tough. It's great you've got a good support team helping you. They would proably be happier if you would reach out to them while you are going through this especially rough patch. Why don't you think about giving them a call and getting some extra help? Sending hugs to you!