Thank you, online user. I haven't actually asked him yet. I'm going to later today, but I feel 99% sure that I'm not going to like his answer. I also think I made him angry tonight, but I didn't mean to. I was being quiet and wouldn't tell him the reason. I was getting depressed and couldn't tell him at work. I asked him something at break and he said, "Oh so you are talking now?" Sometimes I can't tell when he is angry or not. But I can't be in a jovial mood 24/7. Neither can he. I texted him and apologized for being so quiet. I said I wasn't feeling well. All he said was, "Oh." I guess I was expecting him to say, "That sucks. What's wrong?" But nothing. It just made me feel worse. I'm so scared of talking to him later. I keep having nightmares and I think of him as soon as I wake up. I just get this huge feeling of dread. It feels terrible.

Plus: I left work early without waiting to be sure that I could from my manager. I could get fired for that, but I don't care. I just had to get out of that place.