I do keep busy. Trust me, I'm busy all the time.

I write a lot too. This is also one of my coping skill.

For a T, first of all I don't have money. I could even be homeless next month. Second I have a familly doctor that I'm lucky to see once a year. To have a free therapist I need to be refer to one by my familly doctor who doesn't even know if I am alive or dead. This is not easy. There is a long waiting list for doctors and anyone in medical field. I am not making excuses, it is just the way it is around where I live. Suicide is high becuase we don't have enough doctors.

But, I am one of the lucky one in my area, I have a computer that I can use also as a coping skill. It is my tool to do research on mental illnesses, find ways to help myself, communicate with people who suffer like me and get support like I do get in here on this site. I know I am bless for this and I am very grateful.

I thank you so very much for caring for me. You are very kind!