((((Treehouse))))

It sounds like we had the same session today.

The only good thing that happened today is that I opened my mouth at one point and told him "THIS is how I feel when I need to use a bad coping skill".

I can totally relate to everything you have said, particularly this. We may have different issues going on but my feelings are also too big, too unmanagable for me to understand or express. I dont know if i can find the strength to get through it either. Or whether I even WANT to get through it, even with Ts help.

What I am trying tell myself is that the only thing I can do right now is to try and hang to T and let him drag me through this hole- he is carrying all my weight right now, and to hope that this is enough to get ME through it. I know you have a great relationship with your T- let him be there as much as you need him to be.

Sorry I don't have anything helpful to say, but know that you are not alone with this. I'm sorry things are so bad