you all sound nice. but i don't trust people very much. i did a real stupid thing today, i wrote a note to the therapist we see and told her that i didn't think she liked me and that if she did she would know it was me and talk to me. when w_i went to therapy to day it was really me but the therapist didn't know and i think she should cuz she knows. i told her pretty much that she is just like my mother and now she is probably really mad at me and for sure she won't talk to me thurs.
i told her i didn't want to talk to her anyway.

i really don't care any more. husband is away all week. it's scary and lonely. usually the therapist tells w_i she can call if she is having a problem, but she didn't even say so. i think she really is fed up with us and i'm scared that one more person will leave and then there won't be anyone.

but that won't matter because squashed bugs when they get squashed again and again are dead anyway.