you are not being self-indulgent. depression is real and painful and unfortunately some people dont care to understand that. i once got a message from a friend, in response to my depression, that he preferred to not have pathos in his life, as though i was somehow choosing to be down or blue. its not a choice. you are not bad or stupid or selfish. you just need some tlc right now, and it doesnt help when people interpret that need as self-indulgent. take care of you.