It's really getting to the point where I'm thinking the definition of insane was written exclusively to keep people in line... The idea that everybody around me in my local life has some level of unreal disconnect is getting to me. Their levels of hypocrisy are eroding my belief that this life I'm living on this side of dreams is real. Makes me wish I could sleep more... my dreams make more sense.
The biggest part that gets to me is the fact that I'm being expected to be emotionless in truth. They want me to EXPRESS only the emotions that are immediately convenient to them, but to not truely experience or express any real emotion at all. These same people are so adversely emotional, and yet so sure they do not have any emotion, that they are willing to boldly state that MY problems are mainly just my inability to accomodate their emotions!

Key repeating scenario being the "threat" statement. I will be trying to acquire an apology for an instance where someone jumped down my throat in reaction to something I didn't do, and I get brought to tears. They ask me why my voice is getting so rough, and I state clearly that it is because I am doing my best not to sob. They get immiately MUCH more confrontive, stating that I need to "Stop threatening them with my manipulative emotions".
Okay... so if you slap me in hte face and I bruise, I'm threatening you, so you need to slap me again and harder, because you know if you hit me hard enough, eventually I'll stop bruising?

Life is messed up. I am not human. Humans react in a way that makes no sense. I must be something else. They sure think that's the case.