For the past week I have thought about cutting. It was only today that I thought that it was a little more then thought because we went to Home Depot to get things for the house and when we went by the blades I was thinking well I can go here to buy them to cut myself so that wasn't good. I just hope I don't go their and act on it. The good thing is is that my mom is always around so I can't just go out and buy it and I do see my pdoc tomorrow.