Hey guys,

I am just feeling really low today...I am being silly and letting things get ontop of me. I thought I was handling everything but today I feel crap.

I am finding it hard without proper support. I feel I haven't had proper help in months because my T has been talking about ending for so long that it meant my sessions were more harmful than helpful. Its been almost 2 weeks since my last session were I told my therapist I didnt think I would be coming back. Today however I have made arrangements to have an appointment with my T on monday, to try and sort out things for ending. Monday may be my last session, I don't know. Either way my Therapist wants to end in a few weeks at the most. I don't want to end in a negative way but i am not sure a positive ending can happen for me.

I have a mental health support worker but she's off "sick" and I haven't seen her in almost 2 and a half months.

I wish tomorrow was monday, I want to get things sorted, if my therapist is definately not going to be there for me which she has said shes not I need to ask her if she knows anyone else I can go to or ill need to find someone myself and start all over again.It feels like the next few days are going to last forever. I don't know why thats upsetting me when I have lasted the majority of 2 weeks already.

I'm so fed up of living and breathing right now. Sorry Im just being stupid.
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