Hey guys,

I am just feeling really low today...I am being silly and letting things get ontop of me. I thought I was handling everything but today I feel crap.

I am finding it hard without proper support. I feel I haven't had proper help in months because my T has been talking about ending for so long that it meant my sessions were more harmful than helpful. Its been almost 2 weeks since my last session were I told my therapist I didnt think I would be coming back. Today however I have made arrangements to have an appointment with my T on monday, to try and sort out things for ending. Monday may be my last session, I don't know. Either way my Therapist wants to end in a few weeks at the most. I don't want to end in a negative way but i am not sure a positive ending can happen for me.

I have a mental health support worker but she's off "sick" and I haven't seen her in almost 2 and a half months.

I wish tomorrow was monday, I want to get things sorted, if my therapist is definately not going to be there for me which she has said shes not I need to ask her if she knows anyone else I can go to or ill need to find someone myself and start all over again.It feels like the next few days are going to last forever. I don't know why thats upsetting me when I have lasted the majority of 2 weeks already.

I'm so fed up of living and breathing right now. Sorry Im just being stupid.
xxx

Absolutely not stupid. Breathing can be tough sometimes when so much is weighing on you. I will be around most of the weekend and will keep checking in. I am glad you made an appointment. I don't know if any ending can be good either but it may give you some new doors to open as you close that one. Why is this telling me the message is too short?







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