You're not being silly or stupid!! It would be unbearable for me to go through what you have been doing. You're very strong!!

I hope you're going to ask your T for referrals. It seems like that's the least she can do for you. Have you thought of what you need to say or ask her to get closure on your therapy, so it won't leave a terrible "taste in your mouth" when you think of her?

I know what you mean about days seeming to last forever!! I felt like last week was an eternity.

I wish I could wave a magic wand to turn your T into someone else for you. I know that when I quit my last T she told me "I can't change who I am". I kept trying to get her to do therapy differently, but she wouldn't, not because she didn't care, but she just didn't believe in that kind of therapy. After she told me that, I thought better of her. She wasn't purposely being mean to me; it was just her beliefs and therapeutic orientation. Maybe you could accept that about your T too?