Thanks everyone for the good advice.

I have been reading as much as I could about the disorder, and trying to educate myself to the best of my ability. I bought one book, The bipolar workbook (If anyone has heard of it, or bought it?) and reading through it. It seems to be helpful.

I haven't figured out my personal symptoms of manic or depression.. Though when I am manic, I go on shopping sprees, with money that I don't have to spend. I get very irritible.

I'm not sure how to tell if my symptoms are from being bipolar, or not. Or are they all bipolar symptoms?

I'm just really confused at this point. Is this normal?

I haven't told my boyfriend of 4 years, that I got diagnosed with bipolar yet. I'm scared. I don't know what to say, or how to say it. I'm scared of how he is going to react.