Doctors appointment tomorrow for Adult ADHD Evaluation. Cross my fingers. I want to be normal, gimmie the Adderall.

It's funny since I touched Adderrall I want nothing to do with anything else. I wished I could go into my appoinment and talk to the doctor and tell her everything. As it turns out I don't even knwo what I am going to say. I would love to say hey I have been taking adderall for about two months now and have seen improvement in my energy, my moods, my motivation, my attention........like everything. I no longer even care about Narcotics which was before I found the Add. And I don't snort it, I don't take fifty at one time. I take ONE, Just one, and I don't get high off it. I feel normal. Absolutly perfectly normal. I want to go in there and tell the doctor that I am going to get it somehow, somewhere no matter what. And that I feel because I don't abuse it, and trust me, i know what it is to abuse drugs, and because it is so ILLEGAL and I would be TOTALLY SCREWED to get caught with it I feel I should get a prescription. Why not? I have tried prozac, paxil, zoloft, seroquel, wellburtrin, depakote, lithium, buspar, topamax, lamitical...And none, not one made me feel normal. I don't want to go and play a game and hope I made the right move. I don't like to lie, I hate lying, I can't lie, I hate liars. Is it stupid if I jsut go and say hey look I've been self medicating with Adderrall and I would really like it if you could save me money and a prison sentence by just writing me a prescription because it is the only thing that I have found that works for me. That improves my mood. Other then the last two days, I have not been suicidal and have improved in my work and my home. Is it really stupid to tell them that there is no reason not to give it to you? I mean, what would be the reason not to? Most ADDults use drugs to self medicate until they find the stimulates to make them normal. SO buy not giving it to me because I have a prior drug history would be senseless. I can honestly say I haven't done any drugs other then adderall in the last couple months. Not like before. I love it the feeling of not wanting to be messed up all the time. The adderall keeps me at a steady consistent level where I do not even crave anything else. And It only takes one. I feel like it is my prozac. WOULD IT BE STUPID TO TELL A DOCTOR ALL THIS? I mean who knows me better then me, and why play games where you can set it straight. If I were diabetic I wouldn't have to fight that hard for insulin. this is jsut different because it is legal speed. But still..... shoudl I be honest?