(((((((((Dizgirl))))))))

You are dealing with the unknown........will Monday be your last day, how much longer do you, do you want to continue anyway, who will you be working with in the future, will it be a happy or sad ending, etc. etc. etc. It is overwhelming for me to even think about that. The unknown is the worst because you can't prepare yourself for it. It's like bad news. For me, bad news is never as bad as not knowing. Not knowing is hell and can drive you crazy(that's just been my experience)
You are not stupid. I don't care if you are bumming me out(you're not). I'm miserable right now so I enjoy the company. You are just anxious. I get it. Sending hugs your way hun. By the way, my last appt. with T is on Tuesday. I just got done writing down our final session. I had an appt. today, it went well but I was closed off.......had walls up.........he wanted to talk about how it felt like a death, I was grieving, etc. He was just trying to help but I wouldn't let him in. It's the first time I didn't on purpose. He understands why but I have promised myself that no matter how painful I will let him in on Tuesday. Sorry for hijacking your threat, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. You will get through this. Gripe away all you want. I am not going anywhere.