About 5 months ago my girlfriend dumped me. I met her at work (McDonald's of all places) and it seemed so perfect at the time. We were dating for about 6 months but i just felt so close to her. I have had problems in the past and i don't really trust people all that much but I trusted her for some reason. When she broke up with me she typed me a list of things I did wrong and said that maybe if I changed she would consider going back out with me. I talked to her for a few weeks after that and we got into a fight. We havn't talked since. I called her mom a few times just to see how she was doing because i was afraid to talk to her directly. She even sunk as low as to spread rumors around my prom when she doesn't even go to my school (she went with a guy from my school just to go). My senior year is gonna be starting soon and all my friends are all excited about it. I just cant stop thinking about her. Everyone is just telling me that I am too young to know what love is but shouldn't I be able to feel it when it comes. I was so sure about this and i still want her to at least talk to me. I saw her today at the store and she snubbed me. She had her boyfriend with her but I suppose that means she can't even smile in my direction. Since she left me I have been getting involved with a lot of drugs and recently sex has been a big thing. I figured i could keep my mind off her that way. It just makes me feel worse because I promiesed her never to do it and now i feel like total scum. I am lost right now. Life just feels so much worse than it did before I was with her. I am compeletely clueless as to what to do next. I want to enjoy life again but it seems that I can't figure out how to live anymore. Thanx for reading.