um...
in this kind of senerio what would the best thing for me to do.. for whats best for me and my mom.. I dont want to hurt my mom. she really loves this guy, and puts up a lot from him, and keeps going back to him...

but...
a few years ago i kinda go a weird creepy feeling from my step father.. and he would come by and slap me on the butt and just say he was kidding, or he thought i was my mother cause from behind we look so much a like..
and now..
i have a hard time telling anyone no, but for the first time with him i said no and stuck to no.. but i didn't punch him or fight him as i just sorta... stared off into the tv... I don't like talking to him or being around him, yet my mom keeps trying to get me to call him and txt him... he just texted me asking if my txt's were private.. he got mad when i was crushing on this one guy at a resturant.. and i can't mention anything about being anywhere with anyone else or he gets all angry and like...
and hes afraid i'll tell her, and he says other things, that should probably not say here just because it could be huge triggers for others.. but... things that really scare me and make me wanna just go crawl in a hole somewhere and die...
my mom noticed his look the other day when they took me shoping and dropped me off, the same look he gives before he pulls my chin up to look at him... I tried to act like i didn't see it and just hoped out of the car really quick...
i'm over 18.. i didn't live with my mom growing up since childhood. she recently stated she wants to get a house with us all in it. and when i said nah she didn't like it and keeps trying... I've tried giving her hints... and some pretty clear ones before.. like i say things from "he's creepy" <== i dont know if that's really all that clear.. but for me to say that about someone, there's gotta be something wrong.. and people SHOULD know that.. those who really know me..

i just dont know what to do.. I dont want to hurt my mom.. My usual go run and tell method is sorta X'd out due to i dont know if want anyone to know(up until this post no one knows.. not even my best friends) .. but i dont want it to be secret anymore... and i want it to not happen. he says that i'm the one using him cause i wont txt or call him and apparently he's done a lot for me by letting me borrow his crapy old printer..