So I texted him while he was at work. I didn't want to text him about this, especially while at work, but I couldn't take it anymore. This is how it went:

Me: "Would you say we are just friends?"
Him: "I guess, what would you say?"
Me: "I would say I like you and don't want to be just your friend."
Him: "Well you know that my priority right now is school. However, I should have not hooked up with you if that was the case cause it is not fair to you. I think we should talk about this though but not over text messages. I apologize for saying one thing and doing another."

I didn't text him back. I knew he wouldn't be mean to me, but the fact that he noticed that he said one thing to me and did another meant a lot. I couldn't stop crying though and I still can't. About 20 minutes later he texted me back.

Him: "You're important to me so we need to sit down and have a conversation"
Me: "Ok, I'm sorry I texted you about it while at work, but I have a hard time talking about these things while in person."

So now I'm supposed to be driving him to the airport in 8 hours. I don't know if he will still want me to take him. And I also don't know when we are going to have this conversation. I'm freaking out. I hate having conversations like these. I just want to run away and fast as possible. I have no clue how it is going to go. Who's gong to say what. It is making me sick to my stomach. He'll be on vacation for a week. Maybe we need time apart?

Personally, I don't buy his excuse about school. Lots of people have relationships in school and my therapist agrees with me. I think he is scared of messing things up in his life because he has made so many mistakes that he is now paying for. I can't convince him to be in a relationship with me, but I don't know what else to say. I feel like as soon as I see him I'll pass out from fear of the actual conversation.