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It's very difficult for me to decide if I should let go completely or not.
I want to ask him if I should just move on..but that would be a dumb idea, because only I can determine if I should or not. I told him I'd wait for him, but I don't know if the waiting will go on for years or more. I'm scared to let him go, I entirely don't want to. I am confused, and I'm emotional on a daily basis after that convention I went to with him there.
I always feel like crying, and I hate it so much. I appreciate what you're telling me. I really dislike that after the con, we went right back to not really talking as much as if nothing happened, he didn't ignore me at all throughout that convention.
Now that I am 2 hours away from him and he's back home and so am I, we hardly ever talk...I don't even know what to say to him half the time because I feel this vibe as if he doesn't even want to really talk, even through texting. I feel a bit intimidated, as if I can't do/say anything without something bad happening. I worry so much and I suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder, and I never realized this until after our break up.
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