(((tree))) Sorry I didn't read this till this morning...I have been really sucky about reading posts lately...in a funk. Anyhow I hope you found some sleep and really hope you had those few morning minutes where things were ok.
I admire your strength to not give up and keep pushing forward through all of this. You are not wimpy (like me) and you have such promise. I know it's hard for you to see, but just in the little time I have known you you have grown so much. I really look up to you, even when your coping skills are off. Keep on truckin Tree...you can do this, I know you can!