I am literally going to stand up and go get pen and paper and start a list of coping skills. I may just hang it on the fridge. I'm teaching my middle child with Aspergers about black and white thinking (wow, is he a black and white thinker), and good coping skills are probably a good lesson for everyone.

For me, sometimes just forcing myself to take an action helps move me forward a little tiny bit. I need need need need to move forward.

T left me a message this morning and reminded me about something we used to do. I would try to believe 1 out of 10 times that "x" is true. So he wants me to believe 1 out of 10 times this weekend that I am okay and my feelings are okay.

The fact that T can't help me feel better right now is scary to me. Although the fact that PC is helping me feel better is really really good. I guess that is my middle place for now. T is trying and it's not working, PC is trying and it is working, and that makes me feel lucky and grateful. Maybe that is the shift. Being able to feel lucky and grateful on top of all of this other stuff.

I need a shift.