I feel the same way. I`ve gotten back in touch with people who knew me when I wasn`t around them before. They say my personality changes when these people are around. I guess it` s us questioning if they have changed and afraid they haven`t. Maybe it`s vibes we put off that turns everyone away, don`t know. I`m not going back again. The 3rd times a charm. Here`s a couple of things to remember. You do nothing to bother a severe mentally ill person. Go out of your way, do what they want to avoid any of their crazy reactions. See how we do them? We walk softly around them. Secondly, look how many people thought Noah was crazy. None of them lived long enough to change their mind.