granite, I hope you're right! I worry that there's no way to help me, that I'm going to feel the way I do forever.

dizgirl, maybe you're right but that thought depresses me. This T told me I would get better! Her methods are different, and she didn't promise, but said IFS and EMDR would help. She said having my Self control my parts is the goal, and that I can do that. She said a lot to me. I want to believe her. It's probably my fault; I resist trying to work on putting my Self in charge instead of my parts.

swimmergirl, yes, my T accepting all of me IS a big deal. Maybe I underestimate how important that is to me. I tell her awful things and she says she is curious, not angry with me.

ECHOES: thank you for the questions. I know this therapy is different, yet my pattern remains. I'm impatient because it's been over a year, but in a way, it seem like up until now was just laying the groundwork for the real work. I haven't asked my T in person, but I emailed my concerns this week, saying I hope she knows what to do with me!

tree, I know I have a need to tell her everything. I think a lot is about shame, and having her accept me the way I am. I still don't trust that she REALLY accepts me. I asked her many times Wednesday if she was angry with me. At the end of the session, I asked her to tell me she still likes me, She did.

insightunseen: My T responds to everything; she's that kind of T. I hope she has the skills to help me through it all; that seems to be my concern. thanks!