Squiggle.............. ((((((((((((((((((( squiggle )))))))))))))))))

my T suggested an empty chair exercise too, and when i told her I could not possibly, ever, allow myself to be that vulnerable in her presence, she said, oh no! - you don't have to do it here. I don't push people; you can do it at home. And then, if you wanted to tell me about it, that would be great too"

I did... and it helped me a lot... I have several more to do, I know that, but I am glad I got as far as I did.

maybe you could try that? Just by yourself?