I have somewhat of an eating disorder history. I wasn't technically bulimic, because I didn't binge, but I did have periods where I would need to purge. It could have been the smallest amount of food, but I had to get rid of it. Then I would be almost afraid to eat because I was afraid that I would have to purge afterward. I'm not sure if it's related to the bipolar, although it begins again when I become depressed and anxious. I have been overweight since I was a child and my mother was always sort of mean about it (buying me clothing I liked, but in a smaller size to "motivate" me to lose weight...gee..thanks mom). One time I was eating an apple - an apple! - and she ripped it out of my hand because she didn't think I should be eating at all. So that sort of followed me and in my 20's I started to feel like I shouldn't be eating. I also could not eat in a room with other people (like a cafeteria) because I felt like people were watching me, thinking I shouldn't be eating. Ugh. So, yeah...I guess I had an eating disorder.