squiggle, I simply love you, do you know that! You are important and valuable and helpful to me.....you are so raw, so honest, so open.....I am sure it really does help you to post these things, and it helps me to see how you work through them.
However, did you take an Ambien last night, per chance, and then did this in your sleep!?!?! If you really don't recollect posting it, that kind of concerns me.....