No offense taken. I am just not in a good place to think positively... much about anything in my life. (Thus the mindless computer game.)

Maybe this will pass... usually such upheaval dumps me into a deeper depression... I am trying to guard my thoughts against that, too.

Need to get through today... and then tomorrow morning. (I've decided to go ahead and face the music tomorrow morning...and maybe the MD won't raise the subject (yet) ???? I wish I had had the thoughts to ask my PT what he had offered in my defense when speaking to my MD.

My MD didn't bother to call my T... as her issue isn't a psychological one to her, for me... even though she has accused me of being an addict.

Maybe I'm thinking too much again right now? I mean, maybe she will make me give up driving AND she will not increase pain med because of her false belief?

(I know, those of you who don't know me might think I'm the typical addict making complaints...but I'm not addicted... I'm in chronic pain verified physical cause, 2 doctors insisting I'm not addict...)

Medication or driving. What kind of choice is that? sigh.