I went back through some emails to find the last email my therapist sent to me. Just to see what she said about another (raw honest) email I sent to her (before this one). This is part of her response to that one:

"No I will not terminate you, get mad at you, or anything else. At some point you will realize this is what you are suppose to do. Get to the heart of the issue and FEEL!"

One of these days I am going to believe her! I am not sure why I don't already. She has never, ever scolded me for any email that I sent to her. No matter how 'ugly' they were.