your story sounds very much like mine. i lived so many years struggling with those emotional issues, judging myself for being weak for not being able to handle the smallest things for when my emotions would get out of control. i tried counseling here and there, but like you I never told the counselor about my childhood. it wasnt until i was in my forties that the anxiety became so bad i started to see things that were not there. i would see massive car wrecks on the freeway in front of me, cars flying at me. this is just part of the emotional breakdown i had. but i finally went to counseling and admitted the abuse that happened to me as a child and was diagnosed with post tramatic stress disorder. so if you think you have an anxiety disorder, dont wait as long as i did. if you dont want these emotions controlling your life be honest about your past. it is well worth it.