<font color="purple"> Things are looking up for me, I told my parents about past abuse that they didnt know about (posted in the survivors of abuse forum), but my anxiety is still high.... I dont know if it is my body reacting to the rapid increase of dosages of my medicine, I am only at the 50 mark now and tomorrow will be at the 100, then a week will be at 150 then two weeks after at 200, or what is going on. I will call my doc today though. Things are going well otherwise in my life. I have the support of my family and friends and employer, but it is really getting very hard to leave my house.... I still am waking up in an instant attack. I have been forcing myself to get out because I am so afraid that if I dont I will become totally disabled by this.... I dont know, just so much going on I guess especially in my head. One thing at a time Melinda I tell myself, one day at a time, its isnt going to happen over night.... Oh but I want to too!!! What no drive thru therapy in this day and age?!? How unacceptable! Please know I jest! Just wishing there was a miracle cure.... </font>