Ive spent my whole life being crazy, but high functioning. I made it through college and got my degree late in life. Had a breakdown and was hospitalized twice while doing it, but I made it. Still, I have always felt like a fraud, because underneath it all I knew what I was hiding. So I have been stable these last couple years, finally getting to the point where I dont feel like such a fake anymore. So here I am at this professional party last night, a fundraiser. And Im fitting in. Had a really nice time. Im going to leave and my friends and I are looking for the host to say our goodbyes. My friend goes up to talk to this gentleman and I am thinking how he looks familiar. And then it just SLAMS me, like I walked smack into a door. Its my dentist. (I have severe dental anxiety) My friend said my face immediately went flush. My limbs went numb, my head was spinning. I couldnt breathe. I started crying. It was awful. My friends didnt think I would be able to drive home. Im horribly embarrassed over the whole incident. How can I exist in a professional capacity if stuff like this can happen any time it feels like it? Sucks so much!