You cant make your self feel something just because you think its right...i understand you want to be hot for him, but don't force the feeling... if its meant to come it probably would have by now. honest, maybe he would make a better friend, than a boyfriend. i dated a man for a while, he was over twice my age... beside the point, but at the beginning i was more attracted to him, but realized i was attracted to his intellect, hes a computer engineer, and it wasnt so much that he was hot, realized we would make better friends, than dating. just do what feels right, im 22 by the way (ya i know my user name is 21 in German, i meant it that way =) but as you know relationships are complicated, it will work out, things allways seem to in the end, if meant to be.

wish you the best.

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