Suga, we are here for you.
Try to take it a day at a time right now.

As for feeling lonely - I've felt lonely in a room full of people.

If you need to find another T, you can do that...do you feel like you need a regular one now - do you agree with what yours said?

I'm with Scooterbug - I've been with mine for 8 years - I don't plan on ending. It's a regular part of my life. Sometimes I go every week, sometimes I go every month depending on how I'm doing.