(((((((Jexa)))))))))

I am sorry you are in so much pain. I don't really have any words of wisdom but it sounds like you may be disassociating?? and on this forum there is a list of things to do to stay grounded. I have never experienced it but maybe this will help you.
I think you may have misinterpreted what your T meant. Going to grad school, moving, getting a new T........this is a lot of change at once. And your T knows you better than most people. I think she thinks that therapy will help you adjust to the change and not that you are all messed up. A lot of people go into therapy because a major life event triggers unresolved pain that they have been dealing with for years. Moving to a new place, grad school, getting a new t, any one of these on its own could "potentially" send someone to therapy and you are doing all 3 at the same time. I am dealing with transitioning to a new T right now and it is about sending me over the edge with what I can handle. I cannot imagine just stopping midway right now. So I think that's maybe what she meant???? I would also suggest you call her as soon as she is available and make another appt. with her right away to clarify what is happening to you, what to do about it, and what she meant.