Sorry I am not posting the way I usually want to post and support you guys.

Since that last session, I have been in an odd place emotionally.
I know I shut down but never felt this totally alone before inside.


It is even hard to read anything now about other Ts and what not!


I wanted to email my T and cancel seeing him Monday, but email is out of the question now for me unless he writes first about something with schedule stuff. So I would have to call him and I really DON'T want to hear his voice at all. All his emails to me are gone and I put his stupid rock up too.