That's one of my fears (JD)... I feel like I am going to be 'retruamatized' That's why I never talk about it. it makes it feel more real. It seems easier to just keep it to myself, it makes it so I can tell myself I'm just lying to myself about what happened. Talking about it makes it more real. To be honest with you, I'm embarrassed to talk about it. It's all my fault........ I really don't think I'm ever going to get over this all.