(((((((Sunny)))))))

My T said the same thing two weeks ago - that I had dipped my big toe in. And he asked me at my last session how far I thought I had went and I pointed to the arch of my foot. Gosh, it's slow sometimes, isn't it?

You and your T know each other so well, and I know from what you've said that he is so committed to healing trauma. I know you're in good hands.

Right now I am in a similar place...trying to talk about something I've been holding onto for a long time, and that I tried to talk about a year ago, but couldn't. And right now, I can't say the words either.

T said that I am feeling the feelings, and that that is a big, big step. He said that I am letting him into the feelings. He is sooooooo patient, and I know he trusts the words will come...I know your T is the same way. I can't imagine being as patient as they are, you know?

I think when we are dealing with things that are so big, and so scary, that we have to trust ourselves and pay attention to our feelings are reactions. Part of me wants to just GET THROUGH THIS, but I think that a wiser part of me wants me to take it slowly. It can get so overwhelming, and I don't want to get too too lost in it. You are paying attention to how you're feeling, and telling T ("I want to leave") and that is huge.

You are so brave to be moving into this scary place. Your T is so steady and so caring. He will bring you through this, and you will finally be free of it. You can do this, sunny