I'm finding it hard right now, analysing all the reactions and thoughts I am havinga s a result of te questionnaires I filled in last week for the psychology assessment. I have another session tomorrow - "about 2 hours" (so I was told) of computer based questionnaires. Part of me is looking forward to it, part of me dreading it. I'm not dreading the process, rather the repercussions.
I have so many things I want to add to what i told the psychologist last week. I want to add extra information and I want to seek his opinions and reassurance. I don't think that is going to be possible because he said the assessment will be run by someone else.
I'm trying not to get too hopeful. Those of you who read about my struggles to get this far may understand that. At the same time there is a spark of hope in me.
I'm tired of constantly analysing myself. I'm willing to change. I want to change. I just don't know how to change.