Well forgotten,
It is not going to happen all at once and JD is right, a therapist is not going to judge you and talking about it slowly doesn't make it real, because it already happened and you do remember it and feeling like it was your fault is the PTSD talking. That is what most people who have PTSD feel like and yes they are afraid to talk about the past. I have that too and I have found that letting it out a little at a time helps.

I didn't think that I could do that for a long time, but once I did then I started to heal and it wasn't haunting me anymore. Just a little at a time and then once it is out you will feel releived.
Open Eyes