Thank you KD.

I attend a DID support group real time, but here I can just be without trying to shut the window, speak/put voice, what is in my mind, which is scarier than even being real, they encourage me to try and connect and it can be confusing, my Therapist thinks it is a great idea, to attend the real time Group to learn to be around others without the window closed, but I feel pressure there because I am always trying to read others. I feel like I have to force it out (words) in front of them, and so communication, like here when I am scared, can become cryptic when I am switching, because I am used to behaving in a very analytical manner due to my work, talking this thru is so very very hard. I post on another forum, where we that are us do share experiences, but most of the time when I speak its from a distance like I am talking about someone else’s life, I am okay to a point, but get close up, into the hurt, and my facade crumbles, this is what I need help with the most. Thank you for welcoming us. Here there are more, again scary, but from what I see, very supportive of each other, which is very heart warming as all struggle with being lost.