Thanks, all of you. Seeing all the replies from you almost made me cry.

The suicidal feelings were too much for me. I had two attempts during the past few days. I don't know how many days have passed. I've lost track of time. Again, thanks for caring. Thank you for being there for me. The suicide attempt feels like a healing wound. Hopefully, it will soon become a scar, but these scars take a long time to fade.